'Coz when a heart breaks, no it dont breakeven

lots of things happened lately..

I don't know what to do anymore..

I've spent my whole life

hating people who hide stuff from me..

but..

lately..

I found out that a lot of people around me..

especially those who are really really close to me..

have been hiding things from me..

Hmm..

I don't know what to feel..

Worst of all..

I cant hate this person..

I tried.. but I couldn't..

What can I do now?

Why do I have to find out all these before UMAT?

finding out 2 of my really really close friends

hiding stuff from me in 2 days..

Why cant you all just.. keep hiding them from me?

Why do you all have to let me find out about them?

Why can't you all tell me before I find out myself?

Tell me what to do?

Show me a way out?

Please?